Why??

Why? This is the question I would most like to ask and yet, it is the one question that I know I cannot. This is just nothing but setting myself up. So many things have been going on with me. Some of my own doing, some of others doing. I just have to remember that God is in control and he has a reason for everything. Sometimes I just get so overwhelmed because I so don't deserve the grace that God has provided for me and I feel terribly guilty sometimes because I know that I continually let him down. Or at least that is what I feel like when I fail yet again. It's just frustrating because I don't want to be like this. I have to just keep working harder. I feel so sad for folks that don't know the Lord and I worry about family members that I won't be seeing in heaven.